It's been one week...

I'm not sure if I should track the first 100 days of my life after college. I'm still in shock and yet know there's work to be done... as if I were just sworn in to office by the American people. Of course that will not happen... I do not intend to run the United States, so be thankful.

The last two nights, I have volunteered at 2 events within our small county... the second smallest county of New York State; dear Schuyler.

I have been scrap booking my Senior year of college. I have print newspapers from school, and the city of Pittsburgh to go through. It was an exciting year for the STEELERS won the Superbowl. I was in Pittsburgh for two Superbowl wins which was something else! It just made my college years complete 2005-2009 with wins in '06 and '09; book ends if you will.

I helped outdoors today which sadly is a stretch for me. I swept the sidewalk clear of fallen blossoms of trees. I don't think I mastered sweeping but I was happy with my attempt. I told my mother and sister to give me a break. Sweeping is a female thing. In those fairy tales it is Cinderella and Snow White that gets the job done. I'm just suppose to stand there, look handsome and be charming.

I've been having dreams about professors... I don't know if this is normal.

I'm off to do Yogilates.

Man... I feel like a woman ~ Shania Twain

Hmmm... ever since I wrote my "Coffee Shop Memoirs of Pittsburgh, PA" I want to start again by saying - WHERE TO Begin...

I just finished my four year college career at Point Park University in Pittsburgh. It was something else; it's unreal to be done. I'm still in quite a shock. Graduation seemed very minor, and yet I put myself in jeopardy of being completely done, here and now. What I'm trying to say is I had one course, a degree requirement I was on borderline to failure. Some seniors were using the phrase "D for Diploma!" well that isn't how I approached the course by any means but I finally knew I had this Bachelor's of Arts Degree today, Wednesday May 6th - just four days after the Graduation ceremony.

I'm thoroughly happy and grateful things worked out. I have a Bachelor's Degree, what?? I never thought once in High School that I was college material honestly. Still, I have my faults... I'm still working on Time management, among other things. Nobody is perfect and yet we strive to be the best we can be - which takes alot out of us.

Today I read a 2 sections of my "Coffee Shop Memoirs" to my sister, whom introduced me to the writings of Mr. David Sedaris... whom I've met in person! She thinks that my writings were in a very similar style to his... I'm on a roll. She mentioned "Coffee Shop Memoirs" would be a great title of a book. It was just a little piece of my Senior Year... I had other writings from the year but really, there more so dark and gruesome... If you look at earlier postings they are on here.

My life isn't pretty. I just try to make the best out of it.

Since I've been home, my room is no where presentable. I'm not fully unpacked and if I were... I have the last 3 years still in boxes to go through. I pointed out to my father that I need a bigger bedroom! ... he agreed.

I left Pittsburgh saying my goodbyes to people near and dear to me but there are others whom I wish I had more time to spend with. I'm tempted to write a cheesy facebook note and tag my friends. I think it's cheesy for the fact that I left abruptly, in my opinion and that's my excuse... I couldn't say goodbye so I will write a letter from NY. Maybe it's the thought factor that will count. I don't know - No se :)

The state of Maine, legalized Gay marriage today... I'm not sure what I think. Granted I don't know... I have been against gay marriage - but it is I, who will not get married to another male, so maybe that is why I have been strongly against gay marriage because it's nothing I'd partake in. As Tori Spelling would say "I love my gays".

So this home living situation isn't easy by no means. It seems like luxury which it is, but not. We are one family under the same roof yet again. We are clashing like crazy and I'm not sure what to think... but I hope we can, or we will manage as the family we've always been.

I need to call this quits for now...

Ta Ta!!

Listening is waiting 4/17/2009

If I were to chase after all the people that I think are hot, attractive, and beautiful... I'd be in a bigger hole than the one I'm in now.

I'm watching the city of Pittsburgh go home.

I believe that sex should be an act of love. ~So forgettable.
It's so easy to give into pleasure, fun, and enjoyment.

I'm no where near ready for love, or to love.

I am not ashamed of what I've done, or am I?

I do regret getting involved with peope whom made me feel happy, and loved. But, love wasn't there. It could be seen as bonding, a companionship of sort but not love.

Not to sound self-centered, but I need to work on me, and that will take time - in which time... I cannot control.

Winter Break thus far...

My winter break from college officially started on Wednesday December 12th. Previous to Winter Break, the weekend of December 7-9th, I performed with the Ithaca Ballet in their 2007 production of 'The Nutcracker'. I reported back to school late Sunday evening (12/9) to finish up the two academic finals I had and to debut a dance composition of mine. On Tuesday December 11th, my dance composition of 'Yellow' to the familiar sounds of Coldplay was premiered. My sister Brittany, and local Pittsburgh friends came out to show support. It was a great dance concert, which was produced by The Conservatory of the Performing Arts - Dance Program of Point Park University, being a student -run performance. My dancers, Chris Wendorff and Alexandra Till did a great job, and I had a ball working with them. After the performance, my friend Aaron, Brittany, and I went to hit up what is called 'Shadyside' of Pittsburgh. Don't get twisted on the title, I love Shadyside, and it isn't really all that shady. It's one of the cosmopolitan spots of Pittsburgh, I believe. We had dinner at Max & Erma's, then hit the bar - 5801 Video Lounge. 5801 was nicely decorated for the holidays which was very nice. I had a good time and it was the first time out with my sister since turning 21 in March. Here's to the Holiday season and Winter Break!

When I got home, I just lounged around as usual. It takes me forever to unpack at home which leaves my bedroom a mess. My mother's friend, Deb was going on a shopping bus trip to New York City, and she got the word to my mother that there was a couple seats left. I booked a seat, and I was off to New York City for a day - that was Saturday December 15th. It was such a last minute plan that I had no idea what I was going to do. I have friends in the city, but it was so last minute to coordinate anything. I did end up finding my good friend Jeri, at her workplace which was Downtown, near the WTC site. It was nice to see her smile again and to catch up the most we could. I went to Macy's in hopes to see one of my dear friends as Santa Claus... but the lines were so long and I was on a timed schedule... so I couldn't see Santa whom we are pretty close. I ended up catching the matinee performance of 'A Chorus Line' on Broadway, the 2006 Revival. It was one of my Christmas presents on the spot for my parents called in as I was on the bus down to the city to order a ticket for me. I was the 6th row back from the stage which I had a great seat, and it is a Christmas present I will cherish for as long as I can... It was a wonderful performance.

On Sunday December 16th, my mother and I headed to Rochester, New York for we have season tickets to Rochester's Broadway Theater League. The National Tour of Irving Berlin's 'White Christmas' was in town. We stopped at the East View Mall before the show and I bought a snazzy sweater from Eddie Bauer for myself. The show 'White Christmas' was a great performance. It was 2 shows in one weekend for me! 'White Christmas' is perhaps one of my favorite holiday films, so it was nice to see it live onstage.